Last weekend was so quiet. Quite nice actually.
On the friday I was so upset as the Mr of the house didn't want to eat my food (again) and so I decided that was all with him and my cooking. (nice and easy decision). So of course as usual, when I'm upset, I felt phisycally ill and got a cold. (sore throat and everything)
By the time he got home I wasn't well and for the first time I was able to say it. "No!, I'm not ok". It felt quite right tbh. My friend Rona and I talked a lot about this on the thursday and I thought her advice was very sensible so I just said everything I had to say when he asked me if I was ok. The good thing was that I was so relaxed to start the weekend with my husband in our house and just do simple weekend stuff together. Did the shopping on Saturday, did the ironing and whilst he was on the computer doing job search (the comp is right in front of the couch where I watch the telly) we talked and laughed. Then on the sunday he went to Tesco for a breakfast, which honestly I don't know how he can stomach, as I went to my meeting. Then camen back home and we did exactly the same we did the day before. It was quiet and simple. Some laughter, some talk, some food, some beer and some sex on saturday night.
Oooh, the sex. Yeah, we hadn't had sex in so long I can't even remember when the last time was. I wore my lucky nighty and of course got myself completely shaved, which I know he likes and just waited for him to come to bed with me. I fell asleep in his arms and he told me he loved me more than I would never know. I'm not quite sure what that means or why I woudn't know, but it's ok. At least he loves me A LOT, and that's good.
Today is monday and I'm waiting for the postman who has a V. important delivery for me. Hope he is here soon cause I can't wait all day in this nervous state. Anyway, I don't know exactly what it is but my husband thinks it's my work permits and all and I so hope he's right. Although it is so scary to have to go back into the world and face the elements (people) but at least we will be able to go on a holiday. Anyway, I just gotta keep waiting. For now, bye bye and be happy for me :)
